"Inside Out" Living Life Beyond the Surface

Every now and then its good to just jump out of your 'comfort zone' and today I did just that... I was invited to speak on a local radio station (98.5 WNYR) to share the story of 'Inside Out' Living Life Beyond the Surface, what a thrill to receive the invitation...and what an opportunity to socialize this great brand and hope to help 'someone' today.  Now as you know by my website I offer 'speaking engagements' and am a professional presenter of nearly 30 years in front of  a live audience but this radio thing that's different!  Most people are fearful of public speaking for me I'm the other way around, I want that energy and audience but hey lets give it a go! Of course, I had plenty of time to get ready, after all when I first accepted, I had 4 weeks to prepare, but as they say, if it wasn't for the last minute nothing would get done and that is where I found myself, in the 'last minute'.   For those of you who don't kno...

It was early Sunday morning February 3 as I found myself in front of a magnifying mirror, my companion, to help me cover up the life that is so spelled out on my face...why must I?? And as with many mornings I am entertained by a performance right outside the bathroom window, staring an array of birds socializing over a morning meal, I am grateful for each of their roles and their reminders of what matters most . Soon after I shed a soft smile upon seeing the Sunday morning show, from my peripheral vision, I sprung fully to the window to 'see' what I 'heard', horse hooves!  This is not necessarily a unique sound at my country home but on Sundays it is certainly more consistent as the Mennonite community hustles off to church. If I am near the window I will always take a peak to see the horses, are they big, are they small are they proud and prancing, are they reliable and at ease...but this morning I saw so much more! I often see families in buggy's, young and o...

Hi and please excuse my absence, I have been thinking of you a good deal!   The holidays come and go with all the expectations and visions either exceeding, falling short or being met....for me I was somewhere in the middle of all those as I tried to seek and find some peace and stillness among the 'business' of it all and I did!  In that stillness I visited my childhood, my past, my present, my pain, my joy, my fear, my future, my faith.  I even ventured out to try something new, by joining the choir at my church!  Yes, I giggle too, but you know what I so enjoyed it, we sang "Sweet Little Jesus Boy" on Christmas Eve, what a blessing.  Bruce and I decorated our home some and I will be vulnerable enough to let you know I did not get my tree up and although it felt like a hiccup in the holiday, I have come to peace with that. Bruce placed an artificial tree we had in the barn, out in the yard and decorated it beautifully (yes he's great!).  I also trave...

One Year ago on Thanksgiving Eve 2017 I traveled to nationally renown Roswell Cancer Center in Buffalo, NY (c-o-l-d) to have a 3rd opinion on my treatment plan, ultimately should I do a cycle of chemotherapy...the answer was so obvious upon my consultation with Dr. Ziro's that it was almost embarrassing, her words rang in my mind 'you are fighting for your life, do everything you can.'  I needed her for my decision and I never looked back.   So onward we went, the decision was made, what a relief, what a "release"... So as Thanksgiving 2018 approached of course there were reflections of where I was a year ago, but interestingly enough not a lot of energy was given to it, just a wink and a nod to a decision that was difficult but was made with peace and knowing finally after weeks and weeks of agonizing over it, 'sweet release'. Where I did find myself this Thanksgiving was a little more emotional and couldn't quite figure it out...but emotions...

So if we don't encourage each other enough to, get out of our own way...lets do that when we can. For me, that means to find a space that it has nothing to do with me, what a wonderful place to be.  I share the following story not to highlight 'us' but to highlight the activity and get you to consider what you may do to 'serve' or to get out of your own way.... Saturday Nov 17 on my calendar it said 'cook with Teresa' --- what it didn't way was 'service', that's what this cooking was.   During a daydream about what to do during this winter season quickly approaching, I thought...we love to cook, we love to hang out and we love to think of how we can make others happy...so with that we decided to cook a meal for an elderly person who would enjoy or maybe even need a nice home-cooked meal, that quickly became 10 home-cooked meals!  I had no idea this need existed right here in our little community...what am I living in a bubble! That's rig...

Today I am so very present and so knowing of the phrase 'what you think about you bring about' - I know I know yet another one liner, another slogan (but) just what if, what if it were really that simplistic... This past weekend I watched 'The Secret' with a good friend (thanks T), I had also read the book recently, additionally my 'random' selections of podcast have circled around this same subject, the power of intention.   So, random in quotes only suggesting this is orchestrated, my frequency is attracting my podcast selections and underlining my desire to understand more and get curious. I'm again getting curious about this manifestation of dreams and the power of intention, I truly could not have imagined my way to where I am 'today' i.e. all the pathways and choices and lifestyle (and pain) that positions us to our purpose, how exciting.  Soon I will be facilitating a 'daydreaming' activity (similar to a vision board, but for me, I...

So, if you follow my Facebook page you know Monday 11/5/18 was a good day...my test results for my 2nd 3 month follow up i.e. my blood work in the doctors words was 'great', cancer marker remains low.  It was a good day :)  BUT, the days leading up to these results are, for me, so impacting and filled with anxiety and fear of 'what if'?  This time around, I resonated more on why, why are these days wrapped in fear and anxiety, why are they not wrapped in hope and happiness, knowing I am going to hear 'great' results, why do I default to the FEAR of 'what if'....well I suppose that goes very deep into a learned habitual space. But what I know for sure, is this was fully orchestrated as part of my journey, cancer was my great teacher.  I was told by a friend (Mrs. C) early on, when the only fact I had was that I had a large tumor on my right ovary and I was being referred to a OBGYN Oncologist, well the word Oncologist helped me write that ending in my ...