"Inside Out" Living Life Beyond the Surface

One Year ago on Thanksgiving Eve 2017 I traveled to nationally renown Roswell Cancer Center in Buffalo, NY (c-o-l-d) to have a 3rd opinion on my treatment plan, ultimately should I do a cycle of chemotherapy...the answer was so obvious upon my consultation with Dr. Ziro's that it was almost embarrassing, her words rang in my mind 'you are fighting for your life, do everything you can.'  I needed her for my decision and I never looked back.   So onward we went, the decision was made, what a relief, what a "release"... So as Thanksgiving 2018 approached of course there were reflections of where I was a year ago, but interestingly enough not a lot of energy was given to it, just a wink and a nod to a decision that was difficult but was made with peace and knowing finally after weeks and weeks of agonizing over it, 'sweet release'. Where I did find myself this Thanksgiving was a little more emotional and couldn't quite figure it out...but emotions...

So if we don't encourage each other enough to, get out of our own way...lets do that when we can. For me, that means to find a space that it has nothing to do with me, what a wonderful place to be.  I share the following story not to highlight 'us' but to highlight the activity and get you to consider what you may do to 'serve' or to get out of your own way.... Saturday Nov 17 on my calendar it said 'cook with Teresa' --- what it didn't way was 'service', that's what this cooking was.   During a daydream about what to do during this winter season quickly approaching, I thought...we love to cook, we love to hang out and we love to think of how we can make others happy...so with that we decided to cook a meal for an elderly person who would enjoy or maybe even need a nice home-cooked meal, that quickly became 10 home-cooked meals!  I had no idea this need existed right here in our little community...what am I living in a bubble! That's rig...

Today I am so very present and so knowing of the phrase 'what you think about you bring about' - I know I know yet another one liner, another slogan (but) just what if, what if it were really that simplistic... This past weekend I watched 'The Secret' with a good friend (thanks T), I had also read the book recently, additionally my 'random' selections of podcast have circled around this same subject, the power of intention.   So, random in quotes only suggesting this is orchestrated, my frequency is attracting my podcast selections and underlining my desire to understand more and get curious. I'm again getting curious about this manifestation of dreams and the power of intention, I truly could not have imagined my way to where I am 'today' i.e. all the pathways and choices and lifestyle (and pain) that positions us to our purpose, how exciting.  Soon I will be facilitating a 'daydreaming' activity (similar to a vision board, but for me, I...

So, if you follow my Facebook page you know Monday 11/5/18 was a good day...my test results for my 2nd 3 month follow up i.e. my blood work in the doctors words was 'great', cancer marker remains low.  It was a good day :)  BUT, the days leading up to these results are, for me, so impacting and filled with anxiety and fear of 'what if'?  This time around, I resonated more on why, why are these days wrapped in fear and anxiety, why are they not wrapped in hope and happiness, knowing I am going to hear 'great' results, why do I default to the FEAR of 'what if'....well I suppose that goes very deep into a learned habitual space. But what I know for sure, is this was fully orchestrated as part of my journey, cancer was my great teacher.  I was told by a friend (Mrs. C) early on, when the only fact I had was that I had a large tumor on my right ovary and I was being referred to a OBGYN Oncologist, well the word Oncologist helped me write that ending in my ...